Anonymous

I don't know what title should I give for this post...now my feeling is like "rojak" or more to complicated...~
Don't know why these few days bad luck always happen on me...
What bad luck that happen? I want to make this as a secret...~ not a very proud things to talk about...
Chinese New Year just few days ahead and yesterday night the 1st bad luck that happen after I came back from work...
a very very bad things happen that night and suddenly I have the urge to kill myself..I know this is bad >.<
I hope God will be with me all the time and I promise this kind of thing won't happen ever again...
and I fell down my whole leg was numb I can't even feel my leg..~
then admitted to the hospital...luckily there's no fracture or any serious thing happen to my leg and hand..but until now I still feel numbness on my hand...
Our Chinese big day is around the corner but bad things happen again and again...
when all of this will over...?
When is my good luck will appear again?
I really hope my family and friends healthy always in this new year but I'm the one who try to hurt myself...>.<
I think I'm going crazy!!!!
i really had to thanked my bro who carry me all the way to the car after I had passed out...
and also my aunt, uncle, brother and lots more who care about me...
I realize that they are everything for me even though we didn't stay under one roof but they still care about me no matter what had happen..
drive all the way to my house after get a call from my mum who worried about my condition...
and my sister who is at Penang right now still give me a call and update herself with my condition..
and she advise me lots of things...
yea~ I know we must love ourself no matter what had happen..
I should be mature enough to think for myself and not easily give up just because there's obstacles in life..
I must stay strong and I don't want to make them worry anymore...truly deep from my heart..~
maybe after 10 years later I will become what I want to be...
I really hope this year won't be an unlucky year for me...
I want be happy always..that all I ever wanted in life..Happiness!!!
I don't hope I will get a bungalow or a big car in one day..as long as me and my family live happily ever after this is the most important things.
Is this too much?
big sigh!~
afterall I'm fine right now =)
feel much better than yesterday...
But I do hope it won't happen ever again...~
I will stay cool and calm myself to avoid myself getting breathless...
Whenever I get too stress out or depressed I will become breathless or asthma...sigh~








Well, Chinese New Year just 2 days ahead...I have to live life to the fullest...~
there's much more people out there whose condition is worst than me...
so I should be thankful because I still have my supportive family by my side...
deep in their heart there's always me..=)
I know it...^__^




HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2011 RABBIT YEAR ^^